what a day

What a day it has been. To start, we had a show in Hartford that was, well, less than perfect. Everything is apparently my fault even if Michael is on the other side of town. Now lets move on to more than relevant subject. In my mind at least. Adam and Kaitlyn. You would think that a person who claims to be my friend would not act upon his feelings for my girlfriend but I guess I was wrong. You love her and though we were dating, decided you had to pursue her. The wort part is you thinks its okay and wonder why I have a problem. You think I should just get over it. It doesn’t work that way. There is an etiquette to the matter. First, you wait for the relationship to end. Second, you give it time. A minimum of six months please. Finally, you discuss it like a man with me and we get to the bottom of the situation. You do everything ass backward. I value our friendship very much but I can’t handle this. I love her more than anything. You should respect that and set your emotions aside. At least if a five year friendship is important to you. All you have done the last six months aside from fuck Kaitlyn is disrespect me. You apologize and I forgive, you repeat and I forgive, like an idiot. The third time, forget it. You are going to have to do something major and stop dating kaitlyn if you ever want to have a friendship again.   

pathetic people

i find it hard to believe that you can seriously be as in love as you put on. the fact that you want marriage after less than a week is crazy. it tells me that i never should have dated you. you are just kinda sad.the fact that you think you can be my friend and step in and steel my relationship from me is really kind of pathetic. you say you are sorry but you still date her. you can eat my fickle matter.

‘friends’ ha

“some people will never be who you think they are. they will always be stumbling around in your footsteps wishing they had what you did. for those people, i feel sorry for you.” from my myspace a couple of weeks ago. i guess i’m eating those words now. a had finally got what he wanted. k chose him. i also have learned that they have been bed buddies for over a year. nice to know you cheated on me for so long.

cadences

so maybe i found something to take my mind off of things. cadences. i must say, it is fun to analyze them. wow, that makes me a nerd. o well, as long as my mind is off a&k i really don’t care. grrrrrrrrrr, i can’t believe he is talking about following your heart and hoping this doesn’t ruin our relationship. your all apologetic, yeah right. if you truly cared you would not have wanted to pursue k.

sometimes

sometimes, don’t you wanna just drop off the face of the planet. just be gone. well i do. i’m such an idiot. why would did i take her back? i knew better. now she left me for my best friend and sees nothing wrong with it. “you have to follow your heart” he says. thats is a load of bull. you don’t date your friends girlfriend, not if the friendship means anything to you. just kill me now, put me out of my misery.

dudes

it is amazing how lonely you feel when you don’t have a best dude to talk to. feels like dude at all. i just can’t believe you pursued my gf-ex-gf-ex-gf… boy that gets complicated, and saying you are a friend. you should have known better. and you k,… what is sad, is that i can believe you have loved him more all along. and after you two hooked up, i excepted your apologies and moved on. boy i was stupid for dating you again. after two years of dating , i would think i found the one. i thought i had. to a: it is a sad person to go after a best mates girl, especially when they are going through so much drama. you should know better. and to steel think we are friends. wow. do you not understand the rules at all. to k: i suppose you are right, at least you were honest. it is a sad person to pull me along the way you have. it ia s wonder why i have no interest in dating. huh? when he hurts you the way he does everyone else he dates, don’t come crying to me, i wont be there. that door is officially closed.

needed to say

so i guess you all could say i am an idiot for forgiving kaitlyn and adam for the crap they have done. you know, sleeping together and all. only my best friend and girlfriend. i should have known better than to date her the third time around. well, i learned my lesson this time. i can’t trust either one of them for starters. he has wanted her all along, or at least since he made his first move. apparently she has wanted him since she was fifteen and has finally gotten the chance so she ran with it. i guess i finally have lost the two people i love the most. for good this time. i mean, he went after her while we were together, some friend huh. she wanted him all along, some girl huh.