God is doing something awesome in Enterprise Alabama. Take some notice to the college ministry.

what a great valentines day it will be. my girlfriend just broke up with me Monday night.  i feel like such a dumb ass, like she was using me for a $600 diamond necklace we found while shopping about two weeks ago.  like a fool i went back and got it for her. damn diamonds. i think she wants to go back to my ex-best friend, yet again, i’m a fool.

Just wanted to wish all of you out there in WordPress a Merry Christmas. Hope you have a good one.

so in light of all the breaking of hearts and such… (i guess to some extent, i’m finally getting over it. i am at the revenge stage right now… i know, i know, juvenile. i can’t help myself.) kaitlyn told she had a miscarriage in august. it bothers me because she told me she was pregnant and i got all excited about being a dad and all, but it was some crazy lye and a way to hurt me as she broke up with me. little did she know was pregnant at the time. i think about it a lot. i guess the idea of having a child was still in my mind when she told. it bothers me a lot that my baby died and i didn’t even know it existed. on another note, one of my closest friends’ grandfather passed away earlier today. for those who believe in prayer, please pray for her and her family. her name is brianne.

you’ll be home tonight. i just don’t know if i want that. i want to see and i want to say that its all cool but its not. i’m not too sure if i should see you. i know you have apologized finally and crap but it just hurts and its way to hard to handle. i just can’t handle anymore pain right now. for whoever reds this… check out my other posts and give me some insight if you don’t mind.

okay… so my best friend, i thought, has done a few things. we’ll start with sleeping with my girlfriend the night we broke up. like a fool i forgave him. swears he will never do that again… yeah right. cue strike two, you can figure that one out. forgave him again. what was i thinking? weeks pass. we are dating again and things are going well. strike three, he takes her from me. we’ve been very good friends for six years. we’ve been all over the country together. obviously a lot of memories. i really don’t want to lose a friendship like that. what are your thoughts, your take, and what is the appropriate action?

well… i finally talked to adam last night and lets just say it didn’t go so well. he actually thinks that he caused no problem, though he is dating my girlfriend of two years, which he took from me. told me he didn’t have time to see me while he is on holiday and home from arizona. told me he had nothing to admit too. obviously a six year friendship meant nothing.

so maybe i found something to take my mind off of things. cadences. i must say, it is fun to analyze them. wow, that makes me a nerd. o well, as long as my mind is off a&k i really don’t care. grrrrrrrrrr, i can’t believe he is talking about following your heart and hoping this doesn’t ruin our relationship. your all apologetic, yeah right. if you truly cared you would not have wanted to pursue k.

sometimes, don’t you wanna just drop off the face of the planet. just be gone. well i do. i’m such an idiot. why would did i take her back? i knew better. now she left me for my best friend and sees nothing wrong with it. “you have to follow your heart” he says. thats is a load of bull. you don’t date your friends girlfriend, not if the friendship means anything to you. just kill me now, put me out of my misery.

it is amazing how lonely you feel when you don’t have a best dude to talk to. feels like dude at all. i just can’t believe you pursued my gf-ex-gf-ex-gf… boy that gets complicated, and saying you are a friend. you should have known better. and you k,… what is sad, is that i can believe you have loved him more all along. and after you two hooked up, i excepted your apologies and moved on. boy i was stupid for dating you again. after two years of dating , i would think i found the one. i thought i had. to a: it is a sad person to go after a best mates girl, especially when they are going through so much drama. you should know better. and to steel think we are friends. wow. do you not understand the rules at all. to k: i suppose you are right, at least you were honest. it is a sad person to pull me along the way you have. it ia s wonder why i have no interest in dating. huh? when he hurts you the way he does everyone else he dates, don’t come crying to me, i wont be there. that door is officially closed.