Smothered

So I’ve been dating this girl for a while now and I just can’t seem to get away from her. I need some time away from her for sanity’s sake. She has to be with me every waking moment of every day. She goes through my phone and my email because she is constantly afraid that I’m cheating on her. I love her very much but everyone needs a little time apart… I just want to be able to breathe… to not feel smothered… to see some of my friends for the first time in months. I mean, she drives me up the F^&*()& wall. I just want her to understand that men need there time just as women do.

How do you handle this?
Do you run? Or is there something to be done?

May 18, 2008

God is doing something awesome in Enterprise Alabama. Take some notice to the college ministry.

V-Day :(

what a great valentines day it will be. my girlfriend just broke up with me Monday night.  i feel like such a dumb ass, like she was using me for a $600 diamond necklace we found while shopping about two weeks ago.  like a fool i went back and got it for her. damn diamonds. i think she wants to go back to my ex-best friend, yet again, i’m a fool.

A Great Start to a New Year

So i guess K and I are dating again. Maybe we are not exclusive but atleast we are together again. I uess it is good to start things slow after how everything ended. Maybe you all think i am crazy for wanting her or taing her back but no one rings my bell quite like she does. I love her with all my heart. Maybe we weren’t together for our New Years kiss but a i guess a my space im smooch is better than nothing. Right? I hope this year turns out to be better than the last one.

Merry Christmas

Just wanted to wish all of you out there in WordPress a Merry Christmas. Hope you have a good one.

not such a merry christmas

so in light of all the breaking of hearts and such… (i guess to some extent, i’m finally getting over it. i am at the revenge stage right now… i know, i know, juvenile. i can’t help myself.) kaitlyn told she had a miscarriage in august. it bothers me because she told me she was pregnant and i got all excited about being a dad and all, but it was some crazy lye and a way to hurt me as she broke up with me. little did she know was pregnant at the time. i think about it a lot. i guess the idea of having a child was still in my mind when she told. it bothers me a lot that my baby died and i didn’t even know it existed. on another note, one of my closest friends’ grandfather passed away earlier today. for those who believe in prayer, please pray for her and her family. her name is brianne.

coming home

you’ll be home tonight. i just don’t know if i want that. i want to see and i want to say that its all cool but its not. i’m not too sure if i should see you. i know you have apologized finally and crap but it just hurts and its way to hard to handle. i just can’t handle anymore pain right now. for whoever reds this… check out my other posts and give me some insight if you don’t mind.

got a ‘q’ want some answers

okay… so my best friend, i thought, has done a few things. we’ll start with sleeping with my girlfriend the night we broke up. like a fool i forgave him. swears he will never do that again… yeah right. cue strike two, you can figure that one out. forgave him again. what was i thinking? weeks pass. we are dating again and things are going well. strike three, he takes her from me. we’ve been very good friends for six years. we’ve been all over the country together. obviously a lot of memories. i really don’t want to lose a friendship like that. what are your thoughts, your take, and what is the appropriate action?

best friends

well… i finally talked to adam last night and lets just say it didn’t go so well. he actually thinks that he caused no problem, though he is dating my girlfriend of two years, which he took from me. told me he didn’t have time to see me while he is on holiday and home from arizona. told me he had nothing to admit too. obviously a six year friendship meant nothing.

still pissed

Okay, so apparently you think I am mad at you for joining the army. Way off their buddy, you damn sure need the army.  What makes it all the better is you really don’t even think I am mad at you for taking Kaitlyn right out from under me. “Whatever your problem is, you need to get over it.” I’m pretty sure that I don’t have to until I am ready. You took Kaitlyn from me. You screwed her the night we broke up and i forgave you like a fool. You swore it would never happen again. I turned my back and you’re hiding it from me. You started doing her again. Yet, like the fool I am, I forgave you again. Guess what, we were dating this time. Three strikes and you are out. You can have her. I sincerely hope she makes you as miserable as the two of you have made me.  You both deserve each other.